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so much has changed but its going to stay the same [Wednesday - 3.21.07 - 3:48PM] This is the first time in years that I have looked at this Livejournal Account!  I was reading through it and realzed that so much has changed.  I was going to change the background and my icon but I cant.....it is the only thing in my life that has not changed since then...I know that sounds crazy but I miss those days more than anything. So many people have came back into my life that I have mentioned in these past posts. Richard was a part of the family again for a while but it was because he as dating my sister.  Eric came back into my life for a while there but he left again...as was needed!  Reed came back into the family in many ways...many of which needs no discussion...and then there are the ones that cant come back....like Kyle...I miss him alot...he intrigued me so much I always felt like there was something that I could learn from him but I just never knew what it was....and worst of all i never got the chance ONe more person that has came back into my life recently is Mitch....Lord, we made so many memories and he taught me so much about myslef...I just hope that things can be as good this time around.  I need somethig that made me feel liek he used to make me feel. 1 touched it - do me!

I really was sick [Thursday - 4.14.05 - 2:09PM] I stayed out of school today because i really was sick last night and into early this morning. No fo corse i cant go to tiffanys house because "Well you are sick right?" I dont care. Im tired and Steven came to see me today. We are going to Sixflags Saturday. Cant help it. I dont really wanna go but I am because there is a chance that we might have a good time. I dont know though. do me!

Noah and Allie [Tuesday - 4.12.05 - 8:26PM] [ mood | hopeful ] [ music | Silence ] "They didn't agree on much, in fact, they barly agreed on anything, they fought all the time and they challenged each other everyday, but despite their differences they had one important thing in common, they were crazy about each other!" ~the Notebook I remember it as plain as if it were yesterday, we were sitting there watching the movie and we had been fighting the whole night {LIke we ALWAYS DO} ang then that litttle quote came on and we both said at the same time that that quote was made for us. It sounds exactly like us. The rest of that night though we still fought because we wanted someone to feel like that about us but what we didnt even know was that we already had someone that did sitting right next to us. I really think that you can love someone so much that you can be blind to how much you really love them. WE WERE! I cant let go and even if I could I dont think that I could let myself. This meant wat too much to me to let it go like he was just another guy. Peoplle say that I must be over him if I can date. I really feel like I am just waiting for my baby to come back to me. I have faith that he will. I know that he will be back for me one day but he is ust waiting until the time is right. I have had faith in him everytime we have been apart and in my mind right now I dont think that this time is any different. He was my world and no matter what someone does to you if they are your world then you cant just let them go away like they never matterd to you. In so many ways I wish that he would find a way to read this. Sometimes I liek to think that maybe he does see me even when I dont see him. Liek amybe for just that minute that looking at me is enough for him. I dont know that it ever was for him but for me, if all that i could do is look at him for the rest of forever then I would. I love him that much. I still do and I always will. What people dont understand is that this wasnt puppy love. IT was the real thing. it still is and always wiill be. He is my baby. For life. I wont give up until the day I die. I love him. you cant take that away! do me!

[Friday - 4.8.05 - 8:07AM] Does all bottled water taste the same to you? No I only drink evian Do you wear shoes when you hang around the house or do you barefoot it? barefoot If money was no object, where would you go out to eat tonight? Well I am going to Olive Garden List all the things on your bathroom counter without looking... Dunno....straight iron...ect. Turn around and look behind you, what do you see? A bunch of my classmates What's worse, a booger hanging out of your nose or a piece of spinach in your teeth? Booger If you could invent a new flavor of soda what would it be? Peach...but i think they already have it What's the first section you usually go to when you go to Walmart? the drugs When is the last time you had a haircut? About a month ago What kind of shampoo is in your shower right now? Garnier Fructice How fast can you type on the keyboard? Pretty fast! What time is it? 8:10 What time do you wish it was? 10:00 Did you get enough sleep last night? Umm no i was up with a friend watching a movie! What's the worst fashion trend going on right now in your opinion? Stupis stilettos with freakin jeans! Who is your favorite family member? My cousins husband Sean! If there were no exotic species laws, what kind of pet would you get? MOnkey If applicable, what kind of video games do you play? None Are jigsaw puzzles annoying or delightful to you? Annoying What's your GPA? Dunno What do you wish it was? Dunno If you could do anything you wanted to today what would it be? Go find Eric! Can you lick your elbow? I dont know! Can you put your leg behind your head? YEs Do you crack your knuckles? Yes Favorite brand of chapstick: Chap-Stick Least favorite food: Fish Bubble baths or showers? Showers Do you have to wear deoderant? Uhh yeah! How do you get the little fuzzies off your sweaters? I dont! Are you allergic to anything? Yes to the tape that the doctor puts on my arm. Are you an upfront person? YEs Have you ever flashed anyone? yes Besides your doctore, has anyone seen you naked? Yes What kind of gum is your favorite? Big Red do me!

[Friday - 4.8.05 - 7:58AM] (x) ever smoked marijuana (x) smoked a cigarette (x) smoked a cigar (x) madeout with a member of the same sex ( ) crashed a friend's car ( ) stolen a car (x) been in love (x) been dumped (x) shoplifted (x) been fired (x) been in a fist fight (x) snuck out of my parent's house (x) had feelings for someone who didnt have them back ( ) been arrested (x) made out with a stranger (x) gone on a blind date (x) lied to a friend ( ) had a crush on a teacher ( ) been to Europe (x) skipped school ( ) slept with a co-worker (x) seen someone die (x) had a crush on one of your friends ( ) been to Canada ( ) been to Mexico (x) been on a plane ( ) thrown up in a bar (x) purposely set a part of myself on fire ( ) eaten Sushi ( ) been snowboarding (x) met someone in person from the net ( ) been moshing at a concert (x) been in an abusive relationship (x) taken painkillers (x) love someone or miss someone right now (x) laid on your back and watched cloud shapes go by (x) made a snow angel (x) had a tea party (x) flown a kite (x) built a sand castle ( ) gone puddle jumping (x) played dress up (x) jumped into a pile of leaves ( ) gone sledding (x) cheated while playing a game (x) been lonely (x) fallen asleep at work/school ( ) used a fake id (x) watched the sun set ( ) felt an earthquake (x) touched a snake (x) slept beneath the stars (x) been tickled (x) been robbed (x) been misunderstood (x) petted a reindeer/goat (x) won a contest (x) run a red light ( ) been suspended from school (x) been in a car accident (x) had braces (x) felt like an outcast (x) eaten a whole pint of ice cream in one night (x) had deja vu (x) danced in the moonlight (x) hated the way you look (x) witnessed a crime (x) pole danced (x) questioned your heart (xx) been obsessed with post-it notes (x) squished barefoot through the mud (x) been lost ( ) been to the opposite side of the country (x) swam in the ocean (x) felt like dying (x) cried yourself to sleep ( ) played cops and robbers (x) recently colored with crayons/colored pencils/markers (x) sung karaoke (x) paid for a meal with only coins (x) done something you told yourself you wouldn't (x) made prank phone calls ( ) laughed until some kind of beverage came out of your nose (x) caught a snowflake on your tongue (x) danced in the rain (x) written a letter to Santa Claus (x) been kissed under a mistletoe (x) watched the sun rise with someone you care about (x) blown bubbles ( ) made a bonfire on the beach ( ) crashed a party (x) gone rollerskating (x) had a wish come true ( ) humped a monkey ( ) worn pearls ( ) jumped off a bridge (x) screamed penis in class (x) ate dog/cat food (x) told a complete stranger you loved them (x) kissed a mirror (x) sang in the shower (x) have a little black dress (x) had a dream that you married someone (x) glued your hand to something ( ) got your tongue stuck to a flag pole ( ) kissed a fish (x) worn the opposite sexes clothes (x) been a cheerleader (x) sat on a roof top (x) screamed at the top of your lungs (x) done a one-handed cartwheel (x) talked on the phone for more than 6 hours (x) stayed up all night ( ) didn’t take a shower for a week ( ) pick and ate an apple right off the tree (x) climbed a tree ( ) had a tree house ( ) are scared to watch scary movies (x) believe in ghosts (x) have more then 30 pairs of shoes ( ) worn a really ugly outfit to school just to see what others say ( ) gone streaking ( ) played ding-dong-ditch (x) played chicken (x) pushed into a pool with all your clothes on (x) been told you're hot by a complete stranger (x) broken a bone (x) been easily amused ( ) caught a fish then ate it ( ) made porn (x) caught a butterfly (x) laughed so hard you cried ( ) cried so hard you laughed (x) mooned/flashed someone (x) had someone moon/flash you (x) cheated on a test (x) have a Britney Spears CD (x) forgotten someone’s name (x) slept naked ( ) French braided someone’s hair (x) gone skinny dippin in a pool (x) been threatened 2 b kicked out of ur house ( ) been kicked outt your house do me!

My Nerves [Thursday - 2.3.05 - 8:39PM] [ mood | bitchy ] [ music | be like that ] I cant beleive how bad everyone is getting on my nerves. ITs just like the one girl that I used to be best friends is getting on them the most. She is so freakin dumb and she is lieing to everyone and I think that BRittany and Keslie know what I am talking about. She is tangling herself up now and she wont be able to get out later. Fuck it. It isnt my place anymore. And I am grounded so I have been stuck in this house forever. I am going crazy and I want out. do me!

Today sucks as every other day [Sunday - 1.30.05 - 4:07PM] [ mood | sad ] I cannot beleive how bad today was but i guess i say that everyday. I hate life alot!! Its so pointless and I cant beleive that people actually love life. My parents hate me and I dont care. I wanna leave anyways. God I hate being stuck here! Its so stupid! 2 touched it - do me!

[Tuesday - 1.25.05 - 4:52PM] 1.) How old are you in dog years? I have no clue! 2.) If you had a personal chef, what would you order them to make for you right now? I would have a big steak! 3.) If you were a Crayola Crayon, what color would you be? Blue 4.) Do you kiss on the first date? It depends! Usually not though! 5.) What's your favorite TV channel? 55 Its the Comedy Central! 6.) Something you wish you were good at... Not being afraid to commit! 7.) What is on your feet right now? My shoes Clark Wallabes 8.) At the grocery store, do you go for paper or plastic? Plastic cause they are easy to carry! 9.) How many caffeinated beverages do you consume in a day? about 10 10.) What color are your eyes? Hazel 11.) Do you walk around naked in the locker room or are you the type to change in the bathroom stall? The bathroom stall for sure! 12.) What was your favorite TV show when you were a kid? Rugrats! 13.) Do you have a job? If so, what is it? NOpe 14.) How old do you think you'll be when you get married? The way it is looking 18 or 19 15.) Do you fart in front of your friends? Uhhh yeah duh! 16.) Do you make your bed or leave it messy? Leave it. Whats the point? 17.) Are you really busy or do you have a lot of free time? NO free time! 18.) What kind of car do you drive? A honda Del Sol 19.) How do you usually do your hair? Straight 20.) Have you ever been pooped on by a bird? Yes at sea world 21.) Are you a technology junkie or do you like the old way of doing things? Neither 22.) What brand of underwear do you usually have on? American Eagle 23.) Who do you live with? My mom dad and sis 24.) Are you a coffee drinker? NOpe 25.) What book are you currently reading? NOne 26.) What kind of toothpaste is in your medicine cabinet? Creast Whitining Expressions 27.) What is your favorite kind of cereal? Cinamin Toast Crunch 28.) What's your earliest memory? Going fishing with my dad 29.) When I say the word "marriage" what's the first thing that comes to your mind? ME and HIm 30.) What person in your life do you respect the most? There are so many people! do me!

yet another day in this world. [Tuesday - 1.25.05 - 3:24PM] [ mood | horny ] [ music | Lose Yourself ] Well, I cant really explain today! It was kind of good kind of bad! I dont really know what to think of all of it. Well I think that me and Keslie and Brittany all found something that we have in common! We all hate Ashley. I think that she brought it on herself though. And I dont think that I actually hate her I just dont like what she is doing to me. I have tried to fix things between us alot of times. I cant anymore. I cant keep putting myself out there. I am a good person and I am not going to get treated like dirt evrytime that I try to do soemthing nice for someone. I dont think that Trace knows what he is getting himself into because if he did then he just would not go there. He isnt her type anyway. Duh that is so obvious. Oh well. Oh my everyone is talking about my so called "teacher fetish" Whatever, yeah there are definitly some hot teachers now but I still would never have anything to do with them. Anyways its actually really funny! Me and steven havent talked in a few days and I cant belive it. I honestly thought he was differnt but i know now that he is exactly the same. I dont care though. It will all be alright. Im good. I didnt like the way he reminded me so much of all the things that eric did. It was insane. But he was actually good to me. I dont care. I want to quit school it is a waste of a perfectly good day. I hate it! I do like the teachers! LOLOLOLOLOLOLOL 1 touched it - do me!

Today again...... [Monday - 1.24.05 - 3:32PM] [ mood | determined ] WEll I have to say that today wasnt really bad at all. Except for the fact that I am not doing well in my classes. Oh well I dont know what I am going to do abaout that! I ate a sub today! Yummmy! Nain was our substitute in class. Court is with Reed! Jason told on Court. Not really funny if you ask me! Tiff got her camera today and we are going to set it up tonight. Cant wait. Went with Tiff and Crsytal to Putts last night to Watch Napoleon Dynamyte Funny as hell Lovin life today! do me!

Circus Fun [Saturday - 1.22.05 - 10:07PM] [ mood | indescribable ] Well I went to the Circus today! It was really fun. I dont know what it is about the circus but when I go I get all excited inside. I feel like alittle kid again. I was really looking foreward to tonight to and then my parents told me thet I couldnt see Steven and that If I wanted to see Tiffany that I would have to stay here. Ughh so she came over and we went to taco bell. Shes gone to Putts and I wish that I was with her. Well I hope tomorrow is better than today. It will be I am going to find a way to make it that way. In my life I always have to hope for a better day. I dont think that anyone really gets me. I think Tiffany does becaue in alot of ways we are alot alike. I wish I was Friends again with Brittany and Keslie. WEll I cant beleive how close i am to having to make decsisons about college. Tiffany and I talked about it. We are going to JSU for 2 years then to Virginia. I have to get away form here and I am happy about it. I wanna leave it all behind. Except for him. i may not go to wellborn next year. That would be good for me. I think it is just the people here that are driving me insane. I feel like i keep getting stabbed in the back an dI cant trust anyone. Oh well. LIke I said In about a year I am leaving it all behind. 1 touched it - do me!

[Saturday - 1.8.05 - 8:39PM] KEslie was supposed to come over last night and watch that movie but she never called like she said she would. Oh well I guess we will have to do it some other time. I was over at stevens house last night with tiffany and Crystal and this crazy girl came in and asked who was with stevens brother. it didnt end pretty. My mom busted up over at Kev buddies today. Oh well I wasnt doing anything wrong. Me and Tiffany are going out again tonight. WE may go play cards. Fun Fun I wish kes would call me 1 touched it - do me!

Steven Buddy [Tuesday - 1.4.05 - 4:16PM] [ mood | blah ] I cant beleive how fast this break went by. I am not ready to go back to school tomorrow. I really wish that I wouldve just quit. Oh well, I dont think that I am. I am going to go to Stevens tonight because it is my last night beofre school tomorrow. I think we will either go to KEvs or to Putts or we might go somehwere with Courtney and Reed. I went with her and Reed and Justin mudd riding last night. It was fun. Well I will holla lata. 2 touched it - do me!

My Christmas break [Wednesday - 12.15.04 - 8:59PM] [ mood | headache ] [ music | none ] Well i dont know I dont really even wanna go on break cause i know i aint gonna do anything Just sit Richard wants to come over tonight i dont know why him and terri are probably having problems i am always the one that gets to help him i dont wanna anymore I think i have feelings for him Does anyone else think that things are just falling apart Britt and Kes dont really hang out anymore Me and Ash definitly dont hang anymore I have found a new best friend I wish it didnt have to be that way I hate being alone Oh well I saw that one coming anyway I havent ever found one true friend yet Wish some one was real Theres no one Why not BUt i am not really unhappy either i dont know whats up oh well though. 1 touched it - do me!

Woah! [Friday - 12.10.04 - 5:59PM] [ mood | hopeful ] [ music | NONE ] Today was one of those crazy days. I had to take Mrs. Barnes test and it was so hard that I know I failed it. And then my mom came up there and ended up checking me out to go see Bigmomma because she was having a heart cath today. We didnt make it up there in time to see her before they took her back which sucks. Shes doing fine now. Tonight i am going out with tiffany after i do all that crap for wrestling. I hate that. oh well. Today in class Jeremy thought it would be funny to hump a chair, coach ford didnt so he scared the life out of jeremy. Jeremy even got up in front of the class and apoligized for his behavior. I dont know why but JEremy has this profound Respect for coach ford and its liek he has this effect on everyone. Its almost scary kind of like he might be the antichrist or something. I dont really get it. Its kind of like a fad going around the school. Like at oxford its like, "have you seen those ugg boots?" At wellborn its like, "HAve you seen that coach ford" I mean what the........ We did sniglets today in spanish fun!!!!!! I love brocolli! do me!

Christmas Time [Thursday - 12.9.04 - 6:49PM] [ mood | cold ] [ music | Go D.J. ] I dont know what it is about Christmas time but I just get so depressed. Me and Keslie were talking today about Me and eric and all of the good times we had. Yeah I know that the bad times far outdid the good times but when me and Eric had a good time we had a good time. I mean we didnt halfass anything. It was like those things that you look back at and say "i cant believe we did that" It kicked ass. I cant believe that Kyle is gone. Its like yesterday we were all doing stupid stuff. It was like one more thing..... I cant explain. I dont really know how to take all this. And the way it all went down/. Its so crazy. Its been a minute scince i have seen Eric! Its hard to say but I miss him. ME and Richard have been hanging out more latly. I dont know what to think of that. I am still tired and sick all the time. I hate it. Wish there was something that someone could do about that. Filietta Is mother effing crazy! I mean for real. Shes the one that needs the counseling. Crazy. I have to find a new group of friends. Backstabbers. 1 touched it - do me!

Equlibrium [Monday - 11.1.04 - 3:48PM] [ mood | drained ] [ music | NOthin ] Man, I am so afraid. I dont know what is wrong with me but something is. I am sick all of the time and I cant even handle it anymore. I am so weak and I think that I may have something really wrong with me. And on top of all that, I hurt my foot today. I tripped over a rock. Yeah I know! A rock. And then coach ford told me that my equalibrium must be off. I dont think that he even knew what he meant by that. Yeah we made him a funny little book about him and Filitta. It was really funny. I dont think he found it very amusing. Oh well though. Man I really hope that Britt reads this cause i want her to know that I really miss her. Is really do think that we should hang out sometime. I hope she sees that. Well I have got to get an appointment with another doctor to see what is up with my ganked up body. I hope I am alright. 10 days till my birthday. 1 touched it - do me!

Party ON [Sunday - 10.31.04 - 11:36AM] [ mood | groggy ] [ music | NOthing ] Last night at the party, well I wouldnt exactly even call it a party, I mean, there was NO partying going on anywhere except for the few beers her parents had, but lets just say it was like a living hell. I mean first of all, Sean was gonna stand there pretending he didnt notice me there and all until I got on the Dance Floor and then he wanted to come sit beside me and act like he was gonna get up in that. Yeah Right! But anyways and then Ashley gave me word that she invited Terri who therefore invited all of weaver to the party and I had all these girls coming up to me asking me if I Was eric bryants girlfriend. they all must have been living up under a rock for the past few months. Oh but was I pissed when 3 truckloads of weaver people drove up. I couldve died. BUt yall know me. I aint the type to let Terris fat ass get me down, so I danced. It felt good to because it was like I was dancin in her face saying "Look I am unpregant and happy" Well their realtionship is messed up any waays because I would hate to be with a guy that was only with me because I was having his baby. BUt I know she thinks that in the end I am the one that lost either way u look at it. Shes having richards kid and she screwed eric, but i am happy. Happy and alone. 1 touched it - do me!

Texaco Express WHore [Friday - 9.3.04 - 2:12PM] [ mood | uncomfortable ] [ music | I melt ] I went today to bring Richie and Anthony and Joe lunch. Well the only ones who ate the pizza were me, richie and kristin. Oh well though. I had lots of fun. We all sat there and goofed off and they put stickers on me. Ones that said this end up and Fragile: Handle with Care. It was so funny. I stayed up there a really long time until they got really busy. THey are just alot of fun to hang out with. Joe says he is going to start goin to the gym with me. lol that would be some funny stuff. Anyways Terri and Eric are supposably dating now. At this point I dont even care , in fact, i would even warn her about who he is. I have found out stuff about him since we have broken up that I didnt know before. I dont care though. I mean its not like the easiest thing I have ever done but It is not hard at all to let him go. I cant beleive all that crap with that girl at the sparkle mart. it made me cry. Well I met the bank girls today. Ugly! do me!

WEll........ [Thursday - 9.2.04 - 5:42PM] [ mood | sick ] [ music | Evanesence ] I am dating Richard. That is a phrase I never thought I would be able to use. I mean, think about it, they were such good friends. But Richard is so good to me. He treats me like I always wanted to be treated. I hope this dont go down like everything else has for me latley. He is having a baby. I cant beleive I am even going through with this. I mean this is alot on him but It is also alot on me too. I am just prayin that everything will work out for us. It feels like we are supposed to be together. I love him. and it is the first time I have felt that for ANYONE in a while. And the first time in forever that I have felt loved back. do me!

a while [Friday - 7.30.04 - 1:53AM] [ mood | drunk ] [ music | crazy ] It has been so long since i have written in here. Me and Eric are not together anymore and i think this one is for good. I met Craig and that is another life changing experience in itself. Hes great! He even calls to see how my day was ! I went to ann and ashleys tonight. Jamie parris asked me out saturday night. I dunno! He is short. He is so sweet though. BUt CRAIG!!!!! Landy went completly nuts. Dunno why! thats about it. 1 touched it - do me!

game over [Friday - 6.18.04 - 1:04AM] [ mood | drained ] Well me and Eric are over with. I could never lie and say that I dont miss him like crazy. I mean what do I do now? I had my first day at work tonight ! It was alright. I am not really sure about it yet but oh well. It is money. It wasnt real hard. I am so blank right now I just wish that I knew what to do. I mean me and Eric are still friends but I dont know what to do. I miss him alot. He is the only one that I could love.. We will make it one day. 1 touched it - do me!

[Friday - 5.14.04 - 10:26AM] .:*The Basics*:. First, Middle, & Last Name? :: Katie Nichole Age? :: 16 Date of Birth? :: November 10 Location? :: Bama Any Siblings? :: Yep Are You in School? If So, What Grade? :: Yep - 10th What Color is Your Hair? :: Brown Are You Male or Female? :: Female What is Your Weight & Height? :: 5'9" .:*Love & Relationships*:. Are You Single or Are You in a Relationship? :: I am in a realtionship with a wonderful guy named eric) Who is Your Best Friend? :: Britt or Kes Ever Been Kissed? :: Yeah Are You a Virgin? :: yea What Was Your Longest Relationship? :: this one is gonna be forever Have You Ever Been in Love? :: Yes Are You in Love Now? :: Yep! :) Do You Have a Crush on Anyone? :: .:*Right Now*:. What Are you Wearing? :: black pants and a red shirt What Are you Thinking? :: about eric Drinking Anything? :: no Eating Anything? :: Nope Surfing Any Websites? :: no Who Are You Talking to? :: Britt Listening to Music? If So, What? :: Nothing, surprisingly What Time is it? :: 10:31 am How Many People Are on Your Buddylist? :: dunno .:*Favorites*:. Food? :: anything Color? :: blue Actor/Actress? :: Jennifer Anniston Movie? :: Probably Wonderland or Salton Sea Song? :: Anything thats good Band? :: Dunno Type of Music? :: Dunno Person? :: Britt and Kes Animal? :: Bulldogs .:*Random*:. Do You Drink, Smoke, or do Any Drugs? :: no Do You Believe in God? :: YEs Do You Have an Online Journal? :: Mhm, obviously? Ever Lied to Your Parents? :: Yeah, who hasn't!? Ever Been to a Concert? Which one(s)? :: YEs alot Did You Sleep with Stuffed Animals? :: the one that eri gave me What is Your Opinion on Abortion? :: I think it is just plain wrong What is Your Opinion of George W. Bush? :: Doesn't know what the fuck he's doing. Did You Like this Survey?: Not really, a tad bit on the boring side. do me!

[Thursday - 5.13.04 - 10:30AM] [ mood | crazy ] Layer.one Name: Katie Birthdate: Novmeber 10 Birthplace: Jacksonville Current location: Wellborn Eyes: Hazel Hair: Brown Height: 5'9 Righty or Lefty: Righty Zodiac Sign:Scorpio Layer.two Your heritage: I really dont know Your weakness: Eric! He always gets me but in a good way! Your shoes you wore today: Black and diamond flip flops. Your fears: Spiders losing eric heights Your perfect pizza: All the meats and tons of cheese. Goal you'd like to achieve:I dunno. Layer.three Your thoughts first waking up: Eric and having to take a test. Your best physical feature: My lips i guess. Your bedtime: about 11:30 or 12 Your most missed memory: Those with my cousin. Layer.four Pepsi or Coke: Pepsi McDonald's or Burger King: McDonalds Single or group dates: both Adidas or Nike: Neither Lipton Ice Tea or Nestea: Lipton Chocolate or vanilla: Vanilla Cappuccino or coffee: Coffee Layer.five Smoke: uhh Cuss: uhh Sing:yes Take showers daily: uhh yeah! Have a crush: on Eric Think you've been in love: I am now with Eric Want to go college: yes Want to get married: yes Believe in yourself: yeah Get motion sickness: sometimes Think you're attractive: im alright Think you're a health freak: nope Get along with your parents: nope Like thunderstorms: yeah Play an instrument: yes Layer.six - in the past months Gone to the mall: yes Eaten an entire box of Oreos: no Eaten sushi: nooooo Been on stage: yes Gone skating: no Made homemade cookies: no Gone skinny dipping: yes Dyed your hair: no Stolen anything: yes Label.seven - ever.. Been trashed or extremely intoxicated: nah dawg Been called a tease: yes yes yes Got beaten up: hell no Layer.eight Age you hoped to be married: 19 or 20 Number and name of children: none Dream wedding: Run off to las vegas and britt be my flower girl How do you want to die: in my sleep or doing something i love like having sex! lol Where do you want to attend college: NOrth Carolina Dream job: Singer Country you want to visit: Ireland Layer.nine - In a guy/girl... Best eye color: Brown Best hair color: Brown Short or long hair: Longer Height: mine Best weight: muscles Best clothing: none Best first date location: dosent matter Best first kiss location: on my ass Layer.ten Number of drugs taken illegally: 0 Number of people I could trust with my life: 4 Number of CDs that I own: alot Number of piercings: 5 Number of tattoos: none so far Number of times my name's been in the news: ughh none i think Number of scars on my body: dunno Number of things in my past that I regret.: I dont regret anything because i did evrything for a reason. do me!

[Wednesday - 5.12.04 - 10:56AM] [ mood | high ] Everyone, I have picked a new idol. Kurt Cobain. That is a long way from Anna Nichole Smith but I am guessing that the biggest differnce is that he is dead and she isnt. But what the hell, we will all end up dead anyways so why not pick an idol that is already dead. But the more you think about suicide the more it makes sense. I mean, I would like to have that kind of control over when my life ends as those people do. Ahh its like a total loss of control if you dont die when you want. Anyways, I also admire himf or all the drugs he did. I guess. I don't really know why. I got my life back Monday, yeah just to let all yall fuckers know that I am back and this time I can promise you that it aint gonna be pretty. Im done with all of the amature bull shit. SO GET READY WORLD. Yah know I love Eric I really do and thirs time he is the one that i am going to NOT fuck over. Nope not this time cause he hastn ever fucked me over and I love him very very much adn he is my life so no messing with him. I love him. I really hope that he likes who I am goign to turn into because I am going to be happy but at the same time I am going to be realyl wild and crazy! this is when it all goes down! Yay! do me!

[Wednesday - 5.12.04 - 10:48AM] [ mood | blank ] 1: Grab the book nearest to you, turn to page 18, find line 4. Write down what it says: the main change that occurs in growth an increase in size 2: Stretch your left arm out as far as you can. What do you touch first?: a chair 3: What is the last thing you watched on TV?: some cold creek manor 4: WITHOUT LOOKING, guess what the time is: 10:30 5: Now look at the clock, what is the actual time?: 10:53 am 6: With the exception of the computer, what can you hear?: people talking 7: When did you last step outside? what were you doing?: this morning to go to school 8: before you came to this website, what did you look at?: ask.com 9: what are you wearing?: kate and eric shirt and jeans 10: Did you dream last night? What about?: yeah that this guy was about to get me 11: When did you last laugh? a minute ago 12: what is on the walls of the room you are in?: a calendar,clocks,pictures 13: Seen anything weird lately?: nope 14: What do you think of this quiz?: its keeping me busy lol 15: What is the last film you saw?: 13 ghoasts 16: If you became a multi-millionaire overnight, what would you buy first?: me and eric new house and him a car 17: Tell me something about you that I don't know: alot 18: If you could change one thing about the world, regardless of guilt or politics, what would you do? I would allow young people to get married without permission 19: Do you like to dance?: i like to dirty dance with eric 20: George Bush: is he a power-crazy nutcase or some one who is finally doing something that has needed to be done for years?: i think he is doing the righ things 21: Imagine your first child is a girl, what do you call her?: gabriealla 21: Imagine your first child is a boy, what do you call him?: gabriel 22: Would you ever consider living abroad?: yes do me!

[Wednesday - 5.12.04 - 10:35AM] 1. Who are you? [Katie] 2. What are you doing while filling this thingy out? [sitting in class with ym feet propped up] 3. Why are you filling this out? [Because it's here] 4. What room are you in? [Mrs. Brooks] 5. Who is your bf/gf? [eric] I love you 6. Where were you born? [in a hospital in Jacskonville] 7. How old are you? [16 8. When's your birthday? [nov 10] 9. So how are old are you today? [still 16 10. Why are you doing this? [*blink* this was already asked] 11. What do you want from me? [nota damn thing 12. How are you today? [so sleepy] 13. What did you do today? [woke up, ate then came to school after i talked to my baby on the phone] 14. What time is it? [10:39 a.m.] 15. What time did you get up this morning? [6:30] 16. Did you eat breakfast? [yes] 17. If so, what did you eat? [cinnabon roll] 18. Are you gay/bi/straight/stupid? [straight] 19. Who is your best friend? [ my bofreind eric] 20. Who is your best friend of the opposite sex? 21. Who are your favorite rock bands? [dunno] 22. Who is your fav rapper? [dunno] 23. Who is your favorite uh...pop singer? [none] 26. Have you ever liked a someone merely for how sexy he/she was? [not really but eric is very sexy!] 27. Have you ever thought about doing anything with the same sex? [naw dawg] 28. Why or why not? [just cause] 29. WOULD you ever do anything with the same sex? [nope, ] 30. Who would you like to sleep with someone that goes to your school? [i would like to sleep with my boyfriend] 31. What time is it? [10:42] 32. Are you watching anything on tv? [no] 33. Are you listening to any music? [no] 34. What's your favorite color? [blue] 35. Do you like rainbows? [sure] 36. Do you know what they stand for? [yep] 37. Do you like sex? [yes] 38. Do you like kissing? [yes] 39. What's your favorite kind of kiss? [the kind where it is very passiate and raunchy] 40. Do you like hugging? [yes] 42. Do you like cuddling? [alot] 43. Do you like snow? [yes] 44. Do you like the rain? [yes] 45. Do you like getting sunburned? [yes] 46. Do you like thunderstorms? [yes] 47. Does it scare you when you're home alone and the power goes out? [no] 48. What's your phone number? [614-BITE-ME STONER...okay, I lied *rolls eyes*] 49. Do you have a picture? [yes] 50. Where do you live? [bama] 51. Do you have a lot of spare time? [not really] 52. Do you have a license yet? [yes] 53. If not when will you get it? [n/a] 54. Do you like shopping? [no] 55. When was the last time you got laid? [last night] 56. Do you ever get horny? [yes] 57. What do you do about it? [sex up Eric] 58. What's your favorite song? [Dracula and The Reckoning...both by Iced Earth] 59. Do you like my survey? [whatever] 60. What can a guy do to make you melt? [be all naughty] do me!

Lori [Tuesday - 5.11.04 - 10:47AM] [ mood | groggy ] [ music | Nothin ] I realyl do trust him alot. I know that he wouldnt do anything to make me sad or anyhitng so I dont really care about it anymore. But I was just real uncomfortable. When his dad said that I didnt really know what to say. Oh well! I really wish that I could just go home and go to bed. I dont wanna be here anymore. My eyes are shutting and I cant do anything to keep them open. I just keep putting drops in them. They hurt too. I am not sure why i feel the way I do this morning. Or maybe I do! I really think that I am jsut going to go home today and sleep till I have to be at the concert. Oh well. do me!

stoners are bomb [Monday - 5.10.04 - 10:45AM] [ mood | confused ] [ music | nothing ] I am really excited about going to Erics today and i am not really that sure why. I had a really long talk with him last night when we were sitting in his room because I have just been very upset yesterday. I dont really know what the argue was about but I know it wasnt good. I mean, I just wanted to know. I guess I will write later. do me!

ITs been a while! [Tuesday - 5.4.04 - 10:54AM] [ mood | stressed ] [ music | Nothin ] It has been a while since I have put anything in here. SO much has happend! Oh my! The other night I was sitting at Sonic with Ashley and I decided to Call Eric and he said that he had just gotten to Dales. Well he wanted me to come up there. I asked him if Rachael was there and he said yes and I said that I wasnt coming. Well I must have been talking realyl loud because she heard me. She said that she wanted me to come up there and she talked to me and said all this stuff and I told her that I never wanted Fish anyway. It has been so long since I have been to Weaver and as crazy as ti sounds, it is throwing my life off track big time. Every day for about 3 months I would get out of school and go striaght to Weaver and I loved it because I was outta Wellborn and WEaver just has this Feel to it. It is like you love to hate all of the people donw there. Its just this really weird feeling. I had gotten used to all of the faces that I seen down there and I felt safe. And before anyone starts thinking things I am not just talking about the TOWN weaver but just about the things in WEaver. There are many memorys down there and I just cant remeber them. And I cant go and it makes me so sad! MY dad may not let me and Eric go out anymore. BUt what he does not understand is that we WILL be together. I look at the Calender from this time last year when I wrote down all of the things that happend. It just seemed so much easier. So much more calm. I really wish that there was something I could do to make things easier here but I cant. they just wont get any eaiser. Things have gotten to big to take as lightly as we did back then. I would sometimes like to refer to them as the good ole days. Cause I am missing something right now. I wanna find it. do me!

[Tuesday - 4.20.04 - 10:18AM] [ mood | hungry ] Yesterday I went over to ERics and we ran for a while. Oh my that was fun! WEll today I am going over there again and he has to work for just a little while. Only two weeks till Florida! Yay! do me!

[Friday - 4.16.04 - 9:40AM] [ mood | distressed ] [ music | britt again....... ] Last night I went over to Erics house and when I got there, him and Kyle were still working and I sat there for like two hours for real while they just worked and worked. It was kinda boring but then after that I got to spend some time with eric! Well, he is going to stay with his dad tonight and tomorrow night and I am kinda upset cause this is the long weekend and I wanted to spend some time with him but I guess that is more important so I wont be selfish. i have doen so good! Well I guess I am about to go! Oh shit, we have practice again in the moring. What the hell ever! do me!

[Thursday - 4.15.04 - 10:43AM] [ mood | blah ] [ music | Nothin ] Well today they are going to give out our yearbooks and I am kinda nervous. They are going to tell us who got panther tracks and i dont think that I got it this year. Oh well I dont really care. I am just wondering, what is the actual definition of RAVER! Is it really just people with glow sticks. Oh well I dont really know and Britt is trying to tell me! Is she a raver? I dont even want to try to be freinds with Ashley anymore. I never thought that I could not even care anymore but guess what? I DONT care anymore. Really though what has she really done for me! I dont care what she says, all that with Eric should never have been done and I dont give a fuck anymore. And now , since I am not firends with her anymore, and I am friends with Brittny and Keslie, she is going to try here little hand at making me miserable once again! I mean come on! I never tried to steal Courtney away from her when ever she didnt want to be my friend so now that I dont want to be hers and I am friends with Keslie and Britt then she dont need to try to be best friends with them now all of a sudden. I am really mad! I jsut dont care about her anymore! She was a really bad friend and even though I might not have been much better I am not going to waste my time on her anymore its not liek she ever wasted her time on me! I helped Eric with his Ireland project last night! I am the bomb girlfriend! I love him so much and I am glad that things are finally working out again for us! I am never ever going to give him up he means the world to me! Thank God for Britt and KEs I love them alot and I need them too and I am glad it is them instead of Ashley do me!

[Wednesday - 4.14.04 - 11:05AM] [ mood | bitchy ] [ music | Britt ] I have decided that I am going to get a tatto of a shamrock with EB in the middle of it. It is going to be so cool. But anyways, Ashley is trying to fight with me again. I dont understand why she wants to do this. She is being a total you know what! Oh well I am almost to a point where I dont care anymore because just as things start getting good she has to go and ruin them again. I dont care anymore. 2 touched it - do me!

[Wednesday - 4.7.04 - 10:53AM] [ mood | nauseated ] [ music | THe LAte Show ] 1 3 touched it - do me!

[Monday - 4.5.04 - 11:03AM] [ mood | exhausted ] [ music | NOthing ] WEll I am so sleepy today and then I remebered that I have a big project due to Ms. Barnes on Wednesday. I guess I am going to go to Erics today and have him help me work on it. I am so very sleepy I just cant shake this. I am starting to feel overwhelmed by everything that I have to have done by this week. I dotn know if I am going to FLorida with the band because ti falls on mine and erics one year! do me!

[Friday - 4.2.04 - 10:34AM] [ mood | nauseated ] [ music | Britt begging for money. ] Tonight I am going to go babysit ms. Vingers kids. I might go out after that but I am not for sure. I think Eric is going out with his friends tonight since I have to babysit. Oh well I dont really know what I am going to do. My belly is hurting and I am not sure why. tomorrow moring me and Eric are going to get up really early and go to cheaha maybe that is if he doesent pary way too hard tonight. Oh well. WE are spending all of tomorrow together though. Yay Yay Yay! do me!

[Thursday - 4.1.04 - 10:35AM] [ mood | high ] [ music | Nothing ] Eric stayed out of school today adn he said that he was sick. I hope he is alright. I didnt feel real good this moring either but you know me, I got up and went to school. I finally made my final decision last nigth about Colorguard and I am very happy about it. I just decided that I enjoyed doing it more than I did twirling. I am real happy and I am also trying out for captain. Last night we wetn to Dales and Racheal was there again. She was being even meaner today than that otehr day. So after I left ERic there I went home and I called over at his house and asked to talk to Eric and she didnt say anyything she just handed hi the phone. I forgot all about her being there or I wouldnt have left him there. It is not him that I dont trust it is her. Every since her little Fish left her she is feeling like she needs to go after everyone. I wish she would just give it up and if she wants to be mean to soemone she can go be mean to Ashley cause she is the only one here who wants Fish. The worst thing happend last night.....I had to pee really badly so we went by Mitch's house. Well no cars were there but the lights were on so we figusred that someone was there so we knocked and no one came to the door so we just let ourselves in. Well when I walked in it was like OMG!! There was nothing left there. THey had already moved. It was sad to me and I didnt really know why. It was jsut lieka bad movie or something seeing nothing left in his room but all of his pictures. Yah know, it was just like "this is his house, not hte place out in dearminville" I dunno maybe I am just crazy. I dont think that I am going back over to Dales house. EVeryone there seems to hate me, even his mom. ERic dont really get that. He thinks I am just paranoid. BUt I swear the next time that bitch looks at me like she has been I am going to get up and fucking slap her. WEll I am gonna go! Only 1 more day till I get to babysit! Yay Yay! do me!

Babysitting [Wednesday - 3.31.04 - 9:40AM] [ mood | anxious ] [ music | Alot of people talking and no BRitt......Damn i miss her ] This weekend I am having to babysit MS. VIngers kids. I am actually kind of happy I mean, she is paying me 25 dollars for just to keep them from 6 to 9! She said that they would probably be in bed by like 8 anyways, and by the time I leave there I will still have time to go to Weaver for a little while. Oh yeah and htem I think thsi weekend I might have to go apply for jobs. I dont like HAVE to but I really need a job. I have things I need to buy. I am going to go to Erics today after school I didnt get to go yesterday because i had poractice. It sucked and I think that I am going to quit because I really hate twirling. I miss BRitt and Keslie they arent here today and It really really sucks. Oh well I hope they are here tomorrow. I am gonna go we are about to learn about some clip art shit. do me!

[Tuesday - 3.30.04 - 9:52PM] [ mood | angry ] [ music | Some music on a Target commmerical..."anything you want" ] I went to Majorette practice tonight. LEt me tell you. I really hate it. I just dont enjoy twirling. And some of the girls. They just arent the type of people that I enjoy being around. Thats why I think that I want to do colorguard. I love the people on there. I hope Britt and KEslie try out. I called Eric tonight from a payphone at Dixie Mart and hid mom ansered and said that he was asleep. Well I caleed his cell twice when I got home and the second time his mom answered and I hung up on her. That really just pisses me off. I dont know if i can go to school tomorrow I hate it so much. I dont know but there is definitly something wrong with me and Eric and I hate feeling like this. Oh well i guess I will just have to play this one out by ear. do me!

majorette practice [Tuesday - 3.30.04 - 4:59PM] [ mood | touched ] [ music | News ] I have majorette practice tonight and i dont really even know if this is what i want to do this year. I dont really know what is p with ERic but something is and i am sad about it. I lveo him very much! 1 touched it - do me!

Fried Dill Pickles [Tuesday - 3.30.04 - 11:03AM] [ mood | hungry ] [ music | britt again....... ] OMG!! I could really use some of Ellens fried dill pickles. They are so good. She made us some Hot Wings and dill pickles one night. Ahhhhh......those were the good ole days. BUt now I dont even want to go to dales anymore becuase ms. Rachel is always there. Stupid bitch. Welp, Ellen dont like me anyways since that day that she found my earring. Dont givva Fuck! Love it over at Erics house and mItchells though. do me!

Take My Hand [Tuesday - 3.30.04 - 10:51AM] [ mood | nervous ] [ music | Britt ] Today is not a good day. IT is alright but it is by no means a good day. Well I found out today that I am going to baby-sit for Ms. VIngers and she is going to give me 25$! ITs prolly not going to be real purty since i am not that good with kids. Well today I am not real sure what me and Eric are going to do. I dont have any gas in my car. I cant go anywhere with out any gas. So I dont really know. I had to go take a test for MS. Barnes this mornign and she was in a good mood. Ellie says that it is because she tripped and landed on a dick! I dunno why really. I got the game Crainium from Beth last night so we could play it this weekend. Well i am going through it right now. Need help quick! do me!

My Spring Break [Monday - 3.29.04 - 10:37AM] [ mood | weird ] [ music | So many people talking! ] I had a sping break. It wasnt really good or really bad, it was just a spring break. Well lets see, Last Thursday, I went down to Erics and them him and LEdbetter left to go to hte River. Then Friday I went to the Movies with BRitt and KEslie which was the bomb. Then Saturday me adn Courtney went to the River and jason went with us. Then Sunday morning I left to go to North Carolina. Well after we left there on Tuesday, I went to Gatlinburg. Then I rushed evryone to leave there Wednesday cause Eric was coming home only to find out that he burnt down the deck and wasnt coming home till the next day but I was happy to be home anyway. Thursday night Jason went and got Eric from the River. Then I went to get Eric from his house and then we went to the lockin at my church. We didnt get any sleep and the cold hard ground was so uncomfortable. Then we had to wake up early to go to six flags. It was fun. Well then that night me and Eric went and got a movie and then I took him home after we layed out in the yard and talked. Saturday, I went over to Erics kind of early and we rode around forever and then went to Dales house and by mitchells house but he wasnt there. Rachel was at Dales house so I really didnt wanna be there. BUt i was so what the hell ever..... Sunday I went to Erics and we stayed around there after trying to go get my change done in th coinstar machine. TI didnt work and I was pissed. We ate Chicken Sapgetti over at hid grandmothers and then I went home. We lost his cds. I was fucking mad. WEll we were supposed to go to Beths to watch Wonderland but she got put in the hispital so FUCK!!! do me!

[Wednesday - 3.24.04 - 9:05PM] [ mood | discontent ] [ music | Silence ] Away From The Sun It's down to this I've got to make this life make sense Can anyone tell what I've done I miss the life I miss the colors of the world Can anyone tell where I am 'Cause now again I've found myself So far down, away from the sun That shines into the darkest place I'm so far down, away from the sun again Away from the sun again I'm over this I'm tired of living in the dark Can anyone see me down here The feeling's gone There's nothing left to lift me up Back into the world I know 'Cause now again I've found myself So far down, away from the sun That shines into the darkest place I'm so far down, away from the sun That shines to light the way for me To find my way back into the arms That care about the ones like me I'm so far down, away from the sun again It's down to this I've got to make this life make sense And now I can't tell what I've done And now again I've found myself So far down, away from the sun That shines to light the way for me 'Cause now again I've found myself So far down, away from the sun That shines into the darkest place I'm so far down, away from the sun That shines to light the way for me To find my way back into the arms That care about the ones like me I dont really know why but this song right here just hits me every time i hear it. I feel like it is talking right to me. I love it. THis is exactly how i feel every day! do me!

This is Cool! [Tuesday - 3.23.04 - 10:53AM] [ mood | anxious ] [ music | Ellen ] What will your last words be? by cum_on_bitch Your LJ username Your real name Your sex Your age Your last words will be... "i hate you so much..." Created with quill18's MemeGen 3.0! do me!

The End of it All [Tuesday - 3.23.04 - 10:18AM] [ mood | excited ] [ music | My sis snoring ] Well this is the end of our little vacation. I hate to say that I am not completly sad about it all. Naw, It really hasnt been that bad but I do miss Eric, and Keslie, and Britt. BUt hey, it wasnt that bad after all. Well my dreams have been so crazy at night here latly. The night before last i dreamed that I was getting married and then last night I dreamed that I was having quadruplets. It was completly insane. Hope that NEVER happens. Well, I guess I am goign to go get ready for the leaving. HAPPY cant wait. do me!

.....I think I fell in love with the 8th world wonder" [Monday - 3.22.04 - 7:06PM] [ mood | pissed off ] [ music | Verizon COmmercial ] Well today is the 2nd day of this vacation. Last night when I was laying in bed (there is only 2 beds)i rolled over on Anna. She started screaming and then it woke up mom and dad. they came over there and they couldnt get her to stop either. I was really worried. She said she had a dream about bugs or something. Well this morning when we woke up we got ready and then we wen out and went to Eat at Suttons. IT was pretty good. they had these things called mucnhers wich ere like little tater tots with cheese and peppers. They were good. I had a great dream where me and Eric got married. I miss him alot I also miss Britt and Keslie. do me!

My Lil Vacation [Sunday - 3.21.04 - 9:52PM] [ mood | sore ] [ music | Texas Chainsaw Massacre ] I am on vacation right now with my family. Yeah we drove like 10 freakin hours just to get to an overratted hotel where they have like valet parking and room service and the little mexican that turns down your sheets. Yeah its freakin crazy. But anyways I wish i were home or at the river with my baby! I went to Ashleys and everything so we could talk. WEll when I got there she was all like " you look so gorgous" and everything yet she was still like "COurtney this and COurtney that" I was mad. I went to the river to see Eric!! Court and Jason went with me. We had a ball. Everything is working out so good for me and Eric theese days. I really miss Kes and Britt! I just love hangin out with them. WE have so much fun when we are together. I think I am gonna call them tomorrow. I really hurt my arm at the river. ITs a long story, I will tell Britt and Kes in person. 1 touched it - do me!

Dawn of the Dead [Friday - 3.19.04 - 9:59PM] [ mood | amused ] [ music | A million freakin kids ] I went with Brittany and KEslie tongiht to see Dawn of the Dead. It was awesome. There was this one part where there was this big fat woman and theese little black kids behind us kept saying "big momma can run" It was hil-frickin-arious. I dont think I have ever been that scared and the amused at the same time in my whole life. Then the little black kid started running around liek one of the mad people after the movie and me and Britt kept saying Dont Bite US! Kes and BRit are the bomb to go places with! Som much better than Ash! And the poo balls are hiilarius. Eric is at the river and i am going tomorrow. With JAson and Court! Gonna be the bomb! do me!

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